Wow it's been a while!

I can’t believe how long it’s been since I wrote in here! I guess I probably forgot about it for a while!

Since I wrote last time I’ve had a milestone birthday which I celebrated with some girlfriends in the city and had a wonderful time. I also obtained my first tattoo that I have been meaning to get for more than 10 years.  It’s the name of my daughter with a purple rose underneath as her name is Cassandra Rose.  It wasn’t as painful as I expected and I’m happy with it!  OK so what is a woman of my age doing getting a tattoo?  No idea, just thought it was cool and fun and besides I’m pretty much the only one of my friends that doesn’t have one and yes you can still succumb to peer pressure in middle age!  And no it wasn’t a tramp stamp, as it’s located on my back on the right shoulder blade, so it can be covered up when necessary!  They say it’s an addiction and that once you have one you always want more.  I am thinking of getting more but not for the time being…I’ve been using an app called Momento to write in lately but I still like this kind of format in a general blog with articles that are written once in a while.  When I returned to blogging I meant to keep up the momentum but somehow that didn’t happen.  That’s OK onwards and upwards here we are again and I’ll try and keep it a bit more regular.

Coming to this age brings a lot of thoughts and dilemmas.  Sometimes I try to remember back what it was I wanted to be or where I wanted to be at this age and I seriously don't remember.  I know I wanted to be a journalist in my career but since I never got into university to do that course I never got the opportunity.  However a career is not even a consideration for me anymore, a job that is OK to be in, that's somewhat interesting and challenging, keeps my brain working and pays an acceptable wage is all I require from a career at this point in my life.  Mainly I wonder what else there is beyond work and trying to pay bills these days.  I know that it's all a matter of choice and that we can make choices that change our lives but for now, for the sake of my child's security and my current financial status, this is life for this point in time.  Not for always that's for sure.  When Miss C finishes school there is travelling to be done and possibly moving to a location that is not as expensive to live in and then things might become a little more relaxed and there will be less stress.  But all that is a few years away yet and in the meantime we make the most of life as it is currently.

Of course I remember that I imagined being rich and successful.  Although at what I'm not sure...  I even remember writing short story scenarios of my life and how it would be when I reached 35 or something... How wrong it all turned out to be!  We never know what we are going to get or what is going to happen in life, but I guess I've just rolled with the punches and got back up again!

Getting older has its good points and bad points. The good points are things like not getting stressed over little things, being a bit more experienced in life with men, dating, life and other general aspects of life simply because you've been around for a while and things are now a bit clearer.  The bad parts are looking older, age health issues, more maintenance is required such as hair coloring, trying every kind of anti-ageing facial cream, more make up is needed, medications etc.  I can't believe how long it takes to get ready to go out these days!  And of course how tired you get now, going out is great but the recovery is a much longer process!  I remember the days I would not sleep all weekend and still work on a Monday feeling just fine.  Now if I go out more than one night in a row it takes me days to recover!

All I can do is make the most of life and take it all in and enjoy it as much as possible and not let the little things get to me. After all, I'm too old for that shit!